A-Very-Autistic-Hooman

Endless nights endless thoughts , your voice stuck in my head like an alarm not letting me sleep, I lay down and stare at the ceiling trying not to think about us so I count sheep, tired of caring so much because I know you care so little ,I guess I never got to mention my heart was so brittle, I think you already have my replacement while I try to figure out where my place is. Hoping you realize what you’ve lost to make myself feel better but instead I catch myself writing you a love letter, seeing you lose feeling was the worst part, trying to catch you before you got to far , i just hid myself so well when I fell apart , you say you want to talk but forget to text back, make me overthink so much I felt my heart snap, giving you whatever pieces of my heart I have left just to watch you use them as paper weights, while I wonder if you made it home safe. I tried I really did I just wish you did as well , you helped so much so I would break out my shell but in the end I’m back in it in a worse hell. Knowing I lost you and there’s no way to fix it, one day you’ll forget about me like it didn’t happen and the knife left on my back will keep on getting sharpened.